a below-ordinary-and-not-worth-to-get-any-attention girl makes a statement

Well, it is me, who don't understand anything and trying to get anyone's attention.

Yes, I'm a hypocritical, two-faced, and histrionic person. And yes, maybe I'm exaggerating myself. Sometimes I feel like I'm walking alone in this earth without no one I can really rely on.

I'm just hoping that anyone can save me from my own destruction. From this nothingness. And sometimes I lost control. I can't find any reason to live. Any reason that strong enough to tie me to this world. Ha! Right? Now I'm really exaggerating. But, well, maybe no. I'm not really exaggerating, cause these things really happen. I know that I'm lucky. A perfect family, perfect best friend, not-quite-smart brain, healthy and strong body, and the most important thing, a life, a life as a human. So many things that God gives me. Very lucky, aren't I?

But, like many other humans, I'm an egoistic and voracious person. Not satisfied with what I've got now. So ironic, right?

So, anyone out there, can you help and save me? Please?